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OBSERVATIONS FROM THE BRIDGE

A perpetual love letter to the world wide web:
I post things that provoke emotions...
most of which can be summed up by a single vowel
repeated a bunch of times.
"eeeeee!" "oooooooooh!" "AAAAAA[RG]H!"
Jul 26 '13

The light goes on

and the light goes off

Jul 5 '13

I think i’m free now

I’ve had a night that i’ve been dreading for weeks, months maybe. A conversation i’ve had nightmares about…more maybe just a conversation about something that gave me nightmares. I was…crushed. confused, humiliated, FURIOUS, but mostly just…crushed.

For a while I was a complete wreck. I might still be, in some ways. As in, I might loathe every subsequent 4th of July; the last two have been just…more than I can mentally or emotionally deal with right now.

But then I thought something else. Sitting on the backyard deck of my duplex, by myself, wondering why that weird red-flickering star is in a different spot than last night, I thought a completely different way. Different than “i hate myself/the last year was a huge mistake/nothing will ever be okay again/I wish I could go into sleep mode like a PC for the next … indefinitely”.

"…Maybe, I’m free now."

When your worst fear comes to fruition and you feel as wretched as you ever can, what else is there? You can no longer fear something that’s already upon you. It would make no sense. You don’t have to dread it anymore and it will no longer eat at your mind, wrapping it in anxiety. Something previously looming off in the distance, haunting your future, is now in the past.

And in that way, i’m free now. I sat in the dark watching that star flicker (I think I need to name it, it’s kept me company this week) and felt the strangest calm after the storm. I guess i’m free now? Of course, we’ll see in the morning how I feel. Unfortunately you can’t just decide to be liberated; you can’t control where your mind and heart wander all the time. But for now…I guess I can be comforted by this unfortunate stroke of luck.

Happy independence day, guys.

Mar 27 '13

Dear Internet, I think Rob Thomas is a fantastic songwriter.

"Reach down your in your pocket/pull out some hope for me"

HNNGGGG

warning: this matchbox 20 phase of mine might get out of hand this week

Mar 8 '13
everyone should be like this guy at least once a day
happiness must come from inside yourself
and stuff
(this gif is hopefully working since it’s the only file format I just don’t understand at all)

everyone should be like this guy at least once a day

happiness must come from inside yourself

and stuff

(this gif is hopefully working since it’s the only file format I just don’t understand at all)

Feb 28 '13

somebody please bring me pancakes that’s all I want

Feb 20 '13

Hhhhhnnnnnggggggggggggg

Feb 13 '13

1. “Reliving” the event, which disturbs day-to-day activity

  • Flashback episodes, where the event seems to be happening again and again

  • Repeated upsetting memories of the event

  • Repeated nightmares of the event

  • Strong, uncomfortable reactions to situations that remind you of the event

2. Avoidance

  • Emotional “numbing,” or feeling as though you don’t care about anything

  • Feeling detached

  • Being unable to remember important aspects of the trauma

  • Having a lack of interest in normal activities

  • Showing less of your moods

  • Avoiding places, people, or thoughts that remind you of the event

  • Feeling like you have no future

3. Arousal

  • Difficulty concentrating

  • Startling easily

  • Having an exaggerated response to things that startle you

  • Feeling more aware (hypervigilance)

  • Feeling irritable or having outbursts of anger

  • Having trouble falling or staying asleep

Dec 30 '12
let us go then, you and I
with the evening spread against the sky

let us go then, you and I

with the evening spread against the sky

(Source: thepaintedbench)

Dec 18 '12

On the other hand…

death-defying acts of puppy-dom

Dec 18 '12

"they’ve never been in a plane, but they can tell you what’s beyond the clouds, and that’s what the dusty foot philosopher is"

I’ve been holed away in academia-land for days stroking my nerd boner beneath the twin radiances of free speech theory and an increasingly nihilistic worldview

(actually I’ve been at the Blue Door about 8 times in the last 6 days don’t tell my advisor)

…And I’ve reached the conclusion that I would just like to earn a phD (or maybe two of them), and then grab my hiking boots and disappear from respectable circles and carry on with life as usual raising hell or baking bread or whatever it is I’m probably meant to be doing

I want to carry the ivory tower with me in my backpack

Dec 6 '12
Dec 3 '12
ponchopeligroso:

ERRYBODY KNOWS I’M A MOTHAFUCKIN MONSTER

I like my __________ like I like my coffee: ground up and in the freezer.

ponchopeligroso:

ERRYBODY KNOWS I’M A MOTHAFUCKIN MONSTER

I like my __________ like I like my coffee: ground up and in the freezer.

Nov 24 '12
"Get the fuck out of Gaza, Anderson. You’re a national treasure."

"Get the fuck out of Gaza, Anderson. You’re a national treasure."

Nov 16 '12
ATTENTION EVERYBODY: MARLON BRANDO.
THAT IS ALL.

ATTENTION EVERYBODY: MARLON BRANDO.

THAT IS ALL.

Nov 15 '12
I lol’d. My boss (one of my bosses, at one of his jobs) has this posted at the entrance to his office.

I lol’d. My boss (one of my bosses, at one of his jobs) has this posted at the entrance to his office.

(Source: nevver)